Things I keep thinking about and am struggling to come to terms with;
– he said that he wished I had someone like the whore to talk to
– they both acted like I was ridiculous because I was still taking my prenatal vitamins over Xmas.
– he told her he doesn’t even pretend to care about me anymore
– he messaged her minutes after I was wheeled in to have my termination
– he left me in the hospital for my mum to collect to go see her
– they said that they’d both never had sex like they had together
– he bought her lingerie for Xmas
– they talked about the same sexual acts that we shared
– he complimented her on how talented she was at blow jobs
– he was planning a holiday with her over Xmas
– he later said he hadn’t thought about how he was going to explain that to our daughter
I want these thoughts to go away but the reality is they are etched in my mind forever. Time will tell whether I can get past all this.